I seriously can't sleep. Thoughts on my future, my studies, and my family are constantly occurring on my head. Now that I've lost this one chance to make up on my parents, what will happen to me?
I'm not yet enrolled. I wasn't able to take the exams during finals, so maybe I'm fucked. But you know what's nice? I still manage to smile among all this bullshit life is giving me. I guess this is some kind of test. To see how strong and faithful I am. To see if I'm willing to fight till the very end.
But I'm only human. I get tired of fighting too. I have this tendency of giving up and not even try to stand on my own. I hate to lose yet I'm afraid to try.
What am I gonna do now?
